“I just want to stop hurting so bad!”
“I will never get past this!”
“No one understands why I am still a mess!”
These are all statements I have heard from grieving parents. From someone who has been through the suffocating darkness caused by the death of my daughter, I can tell you that our grief doesn’t end overnight, or even in weeks or months.
When my daughter, Becca, died, I wanted God to just take me from this earth. At the same time, I didn’t want to live out the rest of my life in a shell just waiting for my turn to die. If I had to stay here, I wanted to be able to live without the pain that can’t even be put into words. I didn’t know if that was possible, much less how.
I eventually realized that learning to live without our child is like learning how to live with an amputation. Our daughter had her leg amputated at only three years old (due to bone cancer), so I know a little bit of what that is like. I watched her having to deal with that amputation every day, but I also watched her learn how to live a full life with that part of her body missing.
I allowed a seed of hope to be planted in the darkness of my soul, and I learned how to water and nurture that seed until it grew into a purpose for living once again. My life doesn’t look the same, as I will never be the person I was before Becca died. But I have learned how to live a fulfilled life with meaning again, with that part of me missing.
It doesn’t matter how little or how much time has gone by since the death of your child, the struggle is real. And often it seems to get worse before it gets better. That is NORMAL. But it doesn’t have to continue to be normal for you.
As I was in the darkest part of my grief, God began giving me tools to help me climb out of the suffocating pit, and back onto the path of life. He then began bringing other grieving parents into my life who began looking to me for the hope, light and life I had found through His love and guidance.
This led me to write the book When Tragedy Strikes: Rebuilding Your Life with Hope and Healing After the Death of Your Child. So many parents have shared with me how this book brought light back into their suffocating darkness.
You have been a lifeline of light in darkness to me and you have reminded me to cry when the anger threatened to turn to bitterness - Hannah L.
My son's death was a compete traumatic shock and I was angry at God. Laura speaks of this in her book and offered the hope I desperately needed. As I ride the waves of grief, I find I reach for the book over and over again. - Lisa A.
This has been a life altering experience to just absorb the content with every word. Laura's honesty is at times raw and extremely inspiring. I connected on so many levels. - Celeste L.
I've read many books about grief and losing a child, but this book by far has helped me the most. I find myself re-reading it…This book has helped me coming closer to God and trust him more. It has helped restore my faith and to not be so angry about my son being gone. - Amy G.
This book is nothing short of a miracle! … The darkness in my soul has at times been riveting, overwhelming and impossible to dredge through. Laura Diehl has put together words of healing for my wounded heart. - Amazon customer