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The Struggles with Thanksgiving and Child Loss

All the holidays are a struggle, but Thanksgiving is unique in that the entire purpose is to be thankful and grateful for the ways God has blessed us. But, after the death of our child, many of us don’t feel blessed at all, much less feel thankful.

As a pareavor, I totally understand the thoughts of not having anything to be thankful for in those early months and years. The death of our child is front and center and being thankful for ANYTHING can feel impossible. When we are told we can at least be thankful that we are breathing… no, we can’t, because we don’t want to be breathing, right? I remember begging God to just take me. I wasn’t suicidal, I just didn’t want to be here anymore.

To be honest, I don’t even remember those first few years. For the Thanksgiving meal, I think we all went out to eat. We may have done that for the first two to three years, until my adult children worked up the courage to say how much they missed the traditional Thanksgiving meal and being together at the house, so I did eventually go back to that.

Since we now live in our motorhome and are on the road in the Hope Mobile, Thanksgiving is very different for us, which I am quite okay with. However, this year we are driving our car back home to Wisconsin, leaving the Hope Mobile (and our cat, Savanah) with friends in Texas and I will be cooking the meal at my oldest son’s house.

This can be a constant yearly struggle for all of us, not wanting to disappoint our other children and family members, and at the same time, knowing we don’t have it in us to celebrate Thanksgiving, whether it is physically, emotionally, mentally, or even spiritually.

Last year, right after Thanksgiving, I received an email from my friend Jill. Her barely two-year-old son, Nathan, died suddenly and unexpectedly, over twenty years ago. Jill shared with me the struggle of still finding herself, after all those years, “having to continually give grace to those who don’t understand” because she was told on Thanksgiving at a gathering that as she matured, she should be able to celebrate again.

Let me add that her son’s birthday is in November. He died thirteen days after his birthday on November 24th and was buried on Thanksgiving Day. Talk about lots of triggers at a time of year when we are supposed to be “thankful”!

Jill goes on in the email to say what those around us don’t realize; grief has nothing to do with maturity.  There is more to this email as she shares how people think she must still be struggling because of posting pictures of Nathan on these dates, and her response to that. (If you would like to hear the entire email, you can go to podcast episode 185 here or find the Grieving Parents Sharing Hope podcast on your favorite listening app).

It can be exhausting trying to explain to family and friends why we don’t want to (or can’t) celebrate holidays and special events like we have in the past, especially when they just don’t get it. Friends and family who mean well, can even insist that joining in the celebrations and festivities is just what we need. They tell us it is the best thing we can do to “get back to normal.”

That may be true with their personal experience of other losses, but we know this is not like any other loss. However, we would not know that ourselves if we were not experiencing it, so we cannot expect them to know or understand that.

Recently in a conversation with several moms, one of them commented how special it is to be able to make new memories with the one who is gone. That was such a beautiful thought, and one that I will leave you with. How can you still make new and meaningful memories during the holiday season with your child who is no longer here with you?

Yes, it will probably be painful, but like a good pain that is bringing healing. These are bittersweet days for all of us through the end of the year, and even more so if you are like Jill and there are birthdays and death dates in the middle of it.

But you can learn to learn how not to just fall into the despair of the bitter, but how to lean into the sweet. The struggle is real, but so is the Holy Spirit as He walks with you through each day, including the days we struggle to be thankful.

This was taken from a recent Grieving Parents Sharing Hope podcast. To hear all of what was shared (which includes something that might help to explain our grief, if not to others, at least to yourself) you can listen to it here on the GPS Hope website or listen on the GPS Hope YouTube channel. You can also find the Grieving Parents Sharing Hope podcast on your favorite listening app.

Are you dreading the Christmas holiday season and wishing there was something to help you get through it? Hope for the Future: An Advent Book for Bereaved Parents is a daily reading through the Christmas season, and you can also join me live each Sunday night, lighting a candle. Find out more here.

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Expressions of Hope is provided by Grieving Parents Sharing Hope (GPS Hope). The founders, Dave and Laura Diehl, travel full time in their Hope Mobile (a 38-foot motor home) to be more easily available for speaking and ministry requests, and bringing intimate weekend retreats to bereaved parents. Laura is also a singer/songwriter and the author of multiple award-winning books.

If you would like more information about bringing Dave and Laura to you for an event, please send an email to office@gpshope.org.

If you are interested in bringing GPS Hope to your area for a weekend retreat click here.

 

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The Gift of the Holy Spirit Within Child Loss

 

As believers in Christ, we are familiar with who Jesus is and what He did for us. We hear a lot about who God is as well. But how much do we know about the third part of the Trinity, the Holy Spirit? Why do we need the Holy Spirit, and how can He help us in our grief?

Let’s look at when Jesus talks about the Holy Spirit in the book of John, chapters fifteen and sixteen. “It’s to your advantage that I go away, for if I don’t go away the Divine Encourager will not be released to you. But after I depart, I will send him to you”, John 16:7 (TPT). I love hearing that the Holy Spirit is our Divine Encourager, don’t you? (If King James is the version you are most familiar with, it calls the Holy Spirit our Helper.)

Let me share that same verse from the Amplified translation, because it lists out even more things that the Holy Spirit is for us.

But I tell you the truth, it is to your advantage that I go away; for if I do not go away, the Helper (Comforter, Advocate, Intercessor—Counselor, Strengthener, Standby) will not come to you.

We often hear the Holy Spirit called our Comforter and Helper, which means He is all those things in the verse we just read.

  • Advocate – He is your representative, defending you against the accuser.
  • Intercessor – He is before the throne, adding his prayers to yours for help.
  • Counselor – He will help you make good and right decisions in the fogginess of grief.
  • Strengthener – He will give you His inner strength when you have none of your own.
  • Standby – He is standing by, immediately ready to help whenever you call out to Him.

In John 15:26, Jesus also says that the Holy Spirit is the Spirit of Truth and will lead us into truth. Did you know there is one truth that even Jesus had a hard time believing at one point?

Shortly after making that statement, Jesus told His disciples they would be scattered, each one going their own way, leaving Jesus alone. He also stated to them: But I am never really alone, because the Father is with me (John 16:32 ERV). Several hours later Jesus was arrested, badly beaten, and hung on a cross to serve the judgment of a death sentence.

While hanging on that cross, Jesus cried out in complete agony and despair, quoting from King David in Psalm 22:1,  My God! Why have you forsaken me? (Why have you turned your back on me? Where did you go? Why aren’t you here with me?)

But the truth is, God never left Him. The Father never turned His back on His Son. He was WITH Jesus as He hung on that cross, covered in the most hideous sins we can think of, along with all the little sins ever done by me, by you, and every person ever to live on this earth. The Holy Spirit was still dwelling inside Jesus because it is not sin that causes God to separate Himself from us.

How can I say that? For one thing, we see in scripture that God still came down to the garden of Eden to fellowship with His creation of mankind, knowing that Adam and Eve had sinned. Also, in the book of Job, we read that Satan was at God’s throne. That goes against the thought that God’s holiness keeps Him from being able to be around sin.

Here is another thing to think about. If God is so holy that He cannot be around sin or even look at us as sinners, how was Jesus able to come to earth to live as one of us, as God in the flesh dwelling among us? How is the Holy Spirit able to come to us as sinners, allowing us to see our need for the Father’s love to set us free from the chains of sin?

So, if God’s holiness does not keep God away from being around sin and evil (like many of us have been taught), what was it that separated Adam and Eve from God? It was their guilt and their shame! Not their sin.

It is our guilt and shame that causes us to pull away from Him. But things were so dark for Jesus as He hung there, that God’s light could not break through, causing Jesus to feel alone in that suffocating darkness, even though God had not left Him.

It may be so dark that you cannot see God, hear God, or feel God’s presence. Jesus knows what that is like! You have not been betrayed, forsaken, or left alone any more than He was. God is right there with you in the horrific darkness because God’s incredible gift of His very Spirit lives inside you.

Let’s go back to the end of John 16:7 which says, The Holy Spirit cannot come to help you until I leave. But after I am gone, I will send the Spirit to you (CEV). The Amplified version adds to be in close fellowship with you.

God gave us the grace of the Holy Spirit to live in us because He knew we would be challenged by His higher ways and overwhelmed by some of the circumstances of this world at times. But because of His Spirit dwelling in us, it is also possible to also be overwhelmed by His majesty, His fullness, His faithfulness, goodness and incredibly deep love for us!

Jesus knew there was joy ahead beyond the darkness and pain (Hebrews 1:2), even if He could not see it while He was in a place of suffocating darkness. There is joy ahead for you as well, but you must lean on His Spirit, living inside you, to find it.

But God now unveils these profound realities to us by the Spirit. Yes, he has  revealed to us his inmost heart and deepest mysteries through the Holy Spirit … His thoughts and secrets are only fully understood by his Spirit, the Spirit of God.

1 Corinthians 2:10-11 (TPT)

 

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Can We Have Signs from Our Children Who Have Died?

This can be a very controversial topic in the Body of Christ, but I think it is an extremely important one to tackle, which is discussing whether our children can give us signs that they are around at times. I have many pareavors ask me if I think our children can hang around us after they die. Many occasionally “feel” their child’s presence or even have visible, tangible signs that their child’s spirit is there.

Let me say that what matters much more than what I think, is what God has to say about it.

I am going to share what I personally see and have studied in scripture, and yes, I am an ordained minister and have been since 2009, if that makes any difference to anyone.

No one has a perfect revelation of ALL truth. We each need to pray through the questions we have for God, trusting that if we are seeking truth, that is what we are going to find. We can take this even further. Since we know that Jesus Himself IS truth, that is WHO we are going to find when we are seeking truth with a pure heart.

The greatest power in deception is that we do not know that we are being deceived. I don’t know about you, but I believe God’s power is far greater than the enemy’s power. That means God’s power to draw us to Himself is greater than the enemy’s power to deceive us, when we are seeking Him, seeking His kingdom, and seeking truth through the indwelling wisdom of the Holy Spirit.

So, with that, let’s take a small dip into this huge topic.

First, let me share that I am not talking about going to a psychic, or one who “channels” the dead and speaks on behalf of the dead loved one. God makes it very clear that we are NOT to go to mediums or try to call up the dead (Deuteronomy 18:9-11). That is dangerous and opens the door for the demonic realm to approach and deceive us, letting darkness have an influence in our lives disguised as light and hope. I talk about this in detail, including the why (which is God’s way of protecting us), in this week’s podcast episode. Click here to listen.

I do believe it is possible that our children’s spirits have opportunities to visit us, for the specific purpose of bringing comfort, peace, or whatever our need is for that moment. And there are places in the Bible that support this.

Let me just share one of those here.

Many Christians will quote 2 Corinthians 5:8 as a way of saying that does not happen, which says to be absent from the body is to be present with the Lord. They say this verse means that when we die, we leave our bodies behind and our spirit immediately goes to heaven and stays there, like there is some kind of barrier that keeps them from being able to return.

But are you aware of what it says right before that? Verse six states that while we are at home in the body, we are absent from the Lord.

Hmmm…. If we take that literally, it means that as long as we are still in our bodies, we cannot be with the Lord; that we cannot connect to Him. Obviously, that is not what this verse means. God is a Spirit being. We are all spirit beings. Here on earth though, we still have our shell, our body, which houses and limits our spirits. Once we shed this body, our spirit being is no longer housed or limited to being where our body is.

So, since our spirit is already connected to His spirit, and we know that being in our body means we are only separated from the Lord in a physical sense, then wouldn’t 2 Corinthians 5:8 be referring to that? May I point out that verse eight does not say that we are only with the Lord and we will be bound and limited to heaven. I believe this section of scripture is letting us know that the shedding of our body means we are now free from the limitations of being earth-bound beings, and we will be able to be fully with the Lord because we will then be fully in the spirit realm. We may have the perspective that we can only be in heaven as spirit beings, but when you look at 2 Corinthians 5:8 in context, it cannot support that perspective.

Don’t take my word for it, or anyone else’s for that matter. Every person here on earth has blind spots and wrong beliefs in some areas because we are human. Not a single one of us knows all truth. We are constantly being taught by the Holy Spirit, who lives inside us, having our eyes opened to more light and more truth, which continues to set us free from false beliefs. And He graciously brings those things to light at different times for each of us, based on when He knows we are ready to receive that specific revelation of truth in our own lives.

Have I had a sense that my daughter’s spirit is around at some point? Have I wondered if something that I have seen or experienced was a sign that Becca is around? No, I have not, which means I am not trying to use the Bible to “prove” that what I have experienced is from God. I am taking questions being asked of me to the Lord, allowing His Spirit to be my teacher and guide, showing me things that I have not noticed before through His Word. I do not believe He is leading me away from Himself, but closer to Himself and His love that goes beyond our understanding, by shining His light onto a truth that I am ready to see.

One thing I become more aware of with each passing year, is how much I don’t understand about God. Even having the Bible to read and study, His vastness, His majesty, His glory, His love, is just beyond what I can comprehend or wrap my head around. Paul tells us in I Corinthians 13:12 that we see in part and we know in part. We cannot see the full picture, because what we see here on this earth is like looking through a dark glass.

This is something you can take to God. Ask Him about it. Pray about it. God has not only given us His Word, but He has also blessed us with His Spirit to live inside us, to teach and guide us. I believe God, through His Spirit in you, will guide you into truth, not allow you to be led into deception, and He knows what that is for you, based on where you are in this very personal and difficult journey.

Today’s writing lays some of the groundwork for my conversation next week with Nancy Weil. She has a lot to share on this topic, with many stories. If you have your own stories, you will want to make sure to read about my talk with her, and I would love to have you share those stories in next week’s comments.

 

I know this topic may stir up strong feelings and thoughts, going either direction. IF YOU ARE A PARENT WHO HAS LOST A CHILD, please feel free to share those thoughts with me below with love and grace. Anything with harsh judgment and criticism will not be allowed, not because I don’t allow people to disagree, but because the Body of Christ is known for how cruel they are in being so judgmental, and we need to learn to disagree in love.

If you are not a parent who has lost a child, please do not leave a comment. This is a place specifically for those who share this suffocating darkness that others cannot understand unless you have experienced it.

This blog was taken from the Grieving Parents Sharing Hope podcast episode 189, which has much more shared on this topic, including more scriptures. You can listen here on YouTube. To listen directly on the GPS Hope website click here or find the Grieving Parents Sharing Hope podcast on your favorite listening app. To listen to the follow-up conversation referred to with guest, Nancy Weil, click here.

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If you would like more information about bringing Dave and Laura to you for an event, please send an email to office@gpshope.org.

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Giving Yourself a Gift While Grieving During the Christmas Season

For many of us who have lost a child, the Christmas season can be outright brutal. Finding the right gift to give others may not be on your radar right now, much less giving any gifts to yourself. However, those who have been on this journey for a while know how important it is find helpful ways to get through this painful time of year.

In this short blog, I am going to share a couple of ways you can do this.

First, be up front, and let close family and friends know this is still very painful. You can do this by giving them something to read, written by someone else on this journey, to explain why this is normal. (Click here to see the page for this purpose on the GPS Hope website that you can pass along to someone using the share buttons.)

While you are at it, ask everyone to come to the family event prepared with a special memory of your child to share. Just a note: funny is good, as laughter brings a measure of healing. Remind your family that the holiday gatherings are a precious time to spend time with each other and to talk about and share memories with those who couldn’t make it. Death puts your child in the category of someone who could not make it. You may find you hear stories you never knew, and this may even give you something to look forward to instead of dreading being with others.

The other suggestion I want to make is to buy a special notebook and write to your child over the holidays. Describe holiday scenes to them, share with him or her the events you attend, and yes, let them know how much you miss them. There will probably be lots of tears, but tears are cleansing. Even through the pain it will bring a measure of healing, even if it does not feel like it right now.

You can also find ways to join others and remember your children together. Many support groups and cemeteries have special candlelight services in the month of December for this purpose. It helps to know others are also carrying the heavy burden of missing their children or other loved ones.

You can also join me live on Sunday evenings as I light a candle on my advent wreath and share what this season means to us as bereaved parents. (To find out more click here.)

This was taken from my recent podcast episode Five Gifts to Give Yourself while Grieving During the Holidays, which you can find here on YouTube, here on the GPS Hope website or find the Grieving Parents Sharing Hope podcast on your favorite listening app.

 

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Expressions of Hope is provided by Grieving Parents Sharing Hope (GPS Hope). The founders, Dave and Laura Diehl, travel full time in their Hope Mobile (a 38-foot motor home) to be more easily available for speaking and ministry requests, and bringing intimate weekend retreats to bereaved parents. Laura is also a singer/songwriter and the author of multiple award-winning books.

If you would like more information about bringing Dave and Laura to you for an event, please send an email to office@gpshope.org.

If you are interested in bringing GPS Hope to your area for a weekend retreat click here.

 

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Strength and Stability After Child Loss

After the death of our child our world has been completely shattered and we desperately need strength and stability. In our heads, we know that comes from God, but in our hearts many of His promises can now seem very distant.

Isaiah 61:3 is a familiar verse to many of us, which tells us that God will give a crown of beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, and a garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness. But did you know there is more to the verse?

It goes on to say, “… that they will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the Lord, that he may be glorified.” (ESV)

I broke this verse down into four parts on a recent episode of the Grieving Parents Sharing Hope podcast, on how I see this applying to us as pareavors.

  1. Being called oaks
  2. Of righteousness
  3. Being planted by the Lord
  4. God being glorified (and our struggles with that within child loss)

I am just going to share my thoughts on one of those here, which is the first one; how we will be called oaks of righteousness. Some versions simply say trees, but it is not just any tree. So, why an oak tree? Let’s look at some of its characteristics.

  • It starts with such a small beginning, a tiny acorn, but it grows to become one of the largest and strongest trees.
  • The growth of an oak tree is very gradual. It can be so slow that you don’t notice it year-to-year. Then suddenly you realize how big it has gotten and how much it has grown.
  • Oak trees go through seasons. In the spring they bud with new growth; in the summer they are full of green leaves; autumn causes the leaves to change color, eventually falling to the ground and leaving a dead-looking tree through the winter.
  • It endures storms, great winds, ice and snow. It also absorbs the sun and the rain. All of this is needed to bring an oak tree to its place of full maturity.

This is an amazing picture of us. We truly can go from our place of deep grief, despondency, despair, hopelessness, and even feeling like we have died ourselves, to being like a fully mature tree, producing fruit.

It starts out so small, and that little acorn has to be buried in the ground. Breaking out of the shell and popping to the surface takes so long that we think it has died. We think we have died along with our child, and they just forgot to bury us. Plus, it can take so long to feel joy and meaning again that it confirms the darkness of our thoughts that we will never get back out into light and life again.

The growth can be so slow that we don’t think anything is even happening.

Even though there is no apparent life in us, we are just dormant for our season of deep grief.

You and I eventually become stronger through the storms, as we continue to soak up any nourishment provided. In that place of maturity, an oak tree buds and blossoms, producing fruit, and so will we, even becoming a place where others can come to for shelter.

Here is something interesting about oak trees that I did not share in the podcast episode. You can find oak trees around the globe growing in all kinds of different soil types, rainfall levels, temperatures, and elevations.

That tells me that no matter the situation of our child’s death (including losing more than one child or your only child, through murder, drug overdose or suicide, a long illness, or completely unexpected) we can get to a place of growing and flourishing again. We can still have a life of meaning and purpose, not in spite of our child’s death, but because of his or her life.

As I said, I shared some personal insights on all four parts of this section of scripture. If you would like to know the rest, listen to episode 184 of the Grieving Parents Sharing Hope podcast on the GPS Hope website, or find it on your favorite listening app. You can also listen on the GPS Hope YouTube channel here.

If you would like to hear what I shared about the beginning of Isaiah 61:3 just click the links below.

180: Can We Ever Have Beauty Again After Child Loss (with Lin Findlay)

182: God Does Not Say He Will Give Us Joy for Our Grief

183: The Heavy Weight of Grief After Child Loss (with Angelique Marketon)

 

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Expressions of Hope is provided by Grieving Parents Sharing Hope (GPS Hope). The founders, Dave and Laura Diehl, travel full time in their Hope Mobile (a 38-foot motor home) to be more easily available for speaking and ministry requests, and bringing intimate weekend retreats to bereaved parents. Laura is also a singer/songwriter and the author of multiple award-winning books.

If you would like more information about bringing Dave and Laura to you for an event, please send an email to office@gpshope.org.

If you are interested in bringing GPS Hope to your area for a weekend retreat click here.

 

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