When our child leaves this earth before we do, it can feel like everything inside of us has died too. The darkness can be so intense that even breathing feels like work. But over time, God gently begins to plant a seed of hope deep in our hearts. It’s fragile at first, easily drowned by tears or choked by pain. But as we stay connected with Him and with those who understand, that little seed begins to grow.

When Becca first died, I tried to find a group to connect with. At that time, so many places I found, especially in books and online, seemed to reinforce the belief that life will always be dark and never worth living again without our child.

I personally refused to believe that.

I knew my life would never be the same, but I couldn’t come into agreement that there was no longer purpose or that God somehow reached His limit when Becca died. I had four other children and grandchildren to still live for, as well as a loving husband and an international children’s ministry. I also knew that I had the Seed of Hope and Life living inside of me.

The Importance of Connection

For a while, it was just me and God, and honestly, that was a good thing for me personally in that beginning season. But eventually, I knew that I needed to be around others who had experienced child loss.

I kept putting it off. I didn’t want to leave a gathering feeling worse than when I went, being surrounded by people who were as much of a mess as I was. But God knew I needed connection, and somehow, I found out about a Christian organization for grieving moms that was hosting a retreat four hours away and I nervously registered and booked a hotel room. 

Arriving early in the evening, the day before it started, I was surprised to have my hotel phone ring. It was the host, inviting me to join her and the group who were putting the retreat together, for dinner. I was welcomed so warmly, and over the weekend, I discovered that it was wonderful to find myself surrounded by a group of women who were a mess just like me. I wasn’t alone. Being with them watered my own little seed of hope in ways I didn’t even realize that I needed.

Hope: The Bridge from Pain to Purpose

There are so many emotions in grief: numbness, regret, anger, fear, confusion… all valid. But if you notice, these are all negative. So how do we move the needle toward the other direction, especially when we don’t know if we even want to?

I believe the bridge is HOPE.

When we have no hope, we have no desire to live. And the enemy knows that. If he can’t take us physically, he will try to destroy us emotionally, especially after child loss. We carry a big red target on us for him to steal our hope, making us want to die just to be with our child again.

But the death of our child did not blindside God like it may have done to us. That means we do not have to remain chained in darkness with no hope. Jesus came to break every chain that tries to keep us bound.

Seeds Take Time — But They Do Grow

There is a seed of hope already inside you. It may feel dormant, but it’s there. It just needs time (with lots of nourishing) to break through the hard ground of grief.

Seeds don’t sprout overnight. And having fruit takes even longer. Healing works the same way.

I’ve been through the trauma, the grief, and the darkness of losing my child. I’m still on this journey. But that seed of hope God planted in me is now growing into a tree of life. It’s a different tree than before Becca died, but it is alive. And it is bearing fruit.

The Enemy’s Lies vs. God’s Truth

Satan wants you to think that you don’t need God. “If God really is who He says He is, why didn’t He stop my child from dying?” “If God is good, why did He let this happen?” The enemy will try to convince you that you will do better staying mad at God or pushing Him out of your life.

He tempted Jesus in a similar way in the wilderness.  “Do it my way and I will give you what you want.”

The Biblical meaning of temptation is a trial in which we have a free choice of being faithful, or unfaithful, to God. I know we feel like God was unfaithful to us, but that is not true. That is the lie that Satan wants us to believe. He is called the enemy for a reason, because he comes to steal, kill and destroy whatever he can, to make us start to doubt, and believe lies about God. 

Those doubts will make it hard to seek hope, which is exactly what the enemy wants. 

Living From Our Spirit, Not Just Our Pain

Are you living from your soul or from your spirit? Living from our soul means we are living based on how we feel and what we think about the death of our child. Living from our spirit means we are choosing to live from a higher realm; from a place fully redeemed and the one our children are now living in. 

The pain doesn’t disappear. But hope allows us to keep walking. It assures us that joy and purpose can still exist, even if it looks much different than we expected.

God’s resurrection power is already at work in you. Just like we can’t see what happens under the soil, we may not see what He’s doing beneath our grief. But one day, that seed will break through.

You will feel light again.
You will sense purpose again.
You will live again, and even have a productive life of meaning and purpose again.

Allow God to connect you with those who will bring His light into your place of darkness, because we really do heal better together. Every word of encouragement, every shared story, and every act of kindness helps multiply and nourish that seed of hope. And someday, you will become the one offering hope to others. 

NOTE: This was partially taken from the Grieving Parents Sharing Hope podcast episode 321. Click here to listen to the full discussion, or look for the Grieving Parents Sharing Hope podcast on your favorite listening app.

You can also order your own signed copy of My Grief Journey to gently guide you through journaling and reflection after child loss here.

AWARD WINNING AUTHOR, LAURA DIEHL, has written several impactful books that provide comfort and guidance to those navigating the painful journey of child loss, after the death of her own daughter in 2011. Her most acclaimed work, When Tragedy Strikes: Rebuilding Your Life with Hope and Healing After the Death of Your Child, has received multiple accolades, including the 2017 Gold Medal Centauri Christian Book Award for Non-Fiction and a Silver Medal in the 2018 Illumination Awards. Several of her other books have won awards as well.

In addition to her writing, Laura is an ordained minister and has an extensive background in international children’s ministry. She is a sought-after speaker and singer at grief conferences and churches, known for her compassionate approach and deep understanding of the grieving process, especially the unique loss of a child. Through her weekly award-winning podcast, her writings, and other resources provided by GPS Hope, Laura and her husband, Dave, continue to provide hope and healing to thousands of parents worldwide, helping them find light in the midst of profound loss and darkness.

For more information about Laura’s award-winning books go to gpshope.org/books.
To find out more about Laura Diehl and the ministry of Grieving Parents Sharing Hope (GPS Hope) visit gpshope.org.

The link to Hope for the Future is an affiliate link, allowing part of the purchase price to go to GPS Hope. 

How writing can help heal grief after child loss is something many bereaved parents never consider, at least not at first. When your child dies, you can barely breathe, let alone pick up a pen or open a blank document. But writing can become a lifeline, a safe place for the heart to speak what your voice cannot form into words.

Recently, I had a deeply meaningful conversation with award-winning author, writing coach, and bereaved father John DeDakis. His journey shows us not just how writing and grief can coexist, but how writing can help bring a measure of healing to our grief after child loss, by giving us a way to process the pain, honor our children, and even rediscover purpose. 

John’s Story of Loss and Faith

John’s son, Stephen, died at just 22 years old. His death was sudden, heartbreaking, and life-shattering. Like many of us, John and his wife grieved very differently, and it would have been easy to drift apart. Instead, they learned not to judge each other’s grieving style.

One powerful moment John shared was realizing that the same song that made his wife skip forward because it triggered tears, was the same song he replayed because he needed to cry. The same emotion… processed differently. What a beautiful reminder that there is no “right” way to grieve.

John’s faith journey shifted too. He described feeling spiritually unmoored, yet still knowing where the harbor was. His words echoed what so many grieving parents feel. Our beliefs get shaken, stretched and tested. But through his honest wrestling, God met him in the questions rather than the certainties.

Writing as a Pathway to Healing

Before his son died, John was already a journalist and author. But his writing changed after his loss. He discovered that writing wasn’t just something he did, but writing became something that helped heal him.

He didn’t set out thinking, “This will be healing.” It happened naturally. Over time, he realized that his books carried a thread of grief woven through them. His characters were processing trauma, loss, and questions about God, because he himself was.

This is a powerful example of how writing can help heal grief after child loss. Sometimes healing isn’t a conscious goal. It unfolds gently through the words that flow when we allow ourselves to write. I have found that to be the case for me personally, as well. My journaled thoughts about my daughter, Becca’s, death became a book, which was not my intention as I wrote what I was wrestling with in my heart.

Why Writing Helps Grieving Parents

Whether or not you consider yourself a writer, writing therapy for grieving parents can be incredibly healing.

Writing helps because:

• It gives your pain a voice
• It brings order to the emotional chaos
• It allows honest expression that may feel too heavy to speak out loud
• It becomes a safe place to meet with God
• It creates a record of the journey so later you can see how far you’ve come

When you put pen to paper (or fingers to keyboard), things you didn’t even know you were holding often come out.

Psalm 62:8 tells us, “Trust in Him at all times… pour out your hearts to Him, for God is our refuge.”

Writing can be a way of pouring out your heart before God.

One man John worked with reread his journals years later and said, “I forgot how angry I was.” Writing had allowed him to release the anger instead of letting it poison him from the inside.

That is the gift of writing.

How to Begin Writing Through Grief

If the thought of writing feels overwhelming, here are gentle ways to start:

1. Don’t worry about what to write
   Just write whatever comes. It doesn’t have to be a story, or a book, or “share-worthy.” It only has to be real.
2. Try the 10-minute exercise
   Set a timer for 10 minutes and start with:
   “Today, I am…”
   Then write without stopping. Don’t edit, analyze, or judge. Just keep your pen moving.
3. Use writing prompts
   This removes the pressure of a blank page. (Several years ago, I put a book together for this purpose with words like anger, fear, heaven, memories, hope, with a journaling prompt for each word, which can open the door gently. Find out more here: My Grief Journey)
4. Write letters to your child
   This can be a sacred place of connection.
5. Remember: No one ever has to read what you write
   You can keep it, burn it, shred it, or someday turn it into something beautiful.

Each of these small steps shows how writing can help heal grief after child loss, not by fixing the pain, but by creating a safe space for it to breathe.

Writing as a Way to Honor Your Child

Your writing doesn’t have to become a book. It doesn’t have to be public. But writing is a sacred way of saying:

“You mattered. You still matter. I will not forget you.”

Even if no one ever sees your journal, writing is an act of remembrance, love, and continued connection.

A Final Word of Encouragement

If you feel something stirring in you to write, even if it scares you, pay attention to that whisper. You don’t have to be “a writer” to write. You just have to be willing to show up on the page with honesty.

As John and I talked, I truly sensed God’s presence weaving through the conversation. It felt like a divine nudge for some of you reading this right now.

Maybe God is inviting you to write; not to “produce” something, but so He can gently heal you through your own words.

Even though writing is something you do alone, you are not alone on this journey. If you do start writing, I would love to hear about it in the comments below. If you get a special journal to write in, you can even share a picture of it here on the private GPS Hope Facebook page. (Be sure to answer the two questions, or your request to join will be denied.)

You may be familiar with the acronym for HOPE as Hold On Pain Ends. But we know that is not the case for us as bereaved parents, which is why I end each of my podcasts with Hold On Pain EASES. Let writing be one of the ways that eases that pain, bringing a measure of healing to your shattered heart. 

NOTE: This was partially taken from the Grieving Parents Sharing Hope podcast episode 320. Click here to listen to the full discussion, or look for the Grieving Parents Sharing Hope podcast on your favorite listening app.

If you’d like to connect with John DeDakis, you can visit his website here.

You can also order your own signed copy of My Grief Journey to gently guide you through journaling and reflection after child loss here.

AWARD WINNING AUTHOR, LAURA DIEHL, has written several impactful books that provide comfort and guidance to those navigating the painful journey of child loss, after the death of her own daughter in 2011. Her most acclaimed work, When Tragedy Strikes: Rebuilding Your Life with Hope and Healing After the Death of Your Child, has received multiple accolades, including the 2017 Gold Medal Centauri Christian Book Award for Non-Fiction and a Silver Medal in the 2018 Illumination Awards. Several of her other books have won awards as well.

In addition to her writing, Laura is an ordained minister and has an extensive background in international children’s ministry. She is a sought-after speaker and singer at grief conferences and churches, known for her compassionate approach and deep understanding of the grieving process, especially the unique loss of a child. Through her weekly award-winning podcast, her writings, and other resources provided by GPS Hope, Laura and her husband, Dave, continue to provide hope and healing to thousands of parents worldwide, helping them find light in the midst of profound loss and darkness.

For more information about Laura’s award-winning books go to gpshope.org/books.
To find out more about Laura Diehl and the ministry of Grieving Parents Sharing Hope (GPS Hope) visit gpshope.org.

The link to Hope for the Future is an affiliate link, allowing part of the purchase price to go to GPS Hope. 

Healing after pregnancy loss is a journey that can feel both lonely and sacred. Too often, this kind of loss isn’t acknowledged for the deep heartbreak it truly is. But whether the pregnancy loss was early or late, whether you held your baby or not, your love was real, and so is your grief. Today, I want to share a story that beautifully captures both the pain and the redemption that can come through healing after pregnancy loss, especially when faith becomes the anchor that carries you through.

Recently, I had the privilege of talking with Shelley Hitz, a wife, author, and follower of Christ who knows this pain personally. After years of trying to conceive, Shelley finally became pregnant, only to lose her baby through miscarriage. She and her husband, CJ, were never able to conceive again. Yet what followed was a tender story of surrender, healing and faith after pregnancy loss, and how God birthed something new through her heartbreak.

The Unexpected Path

Shelley shared how she and CJ spent years in ministry, serving as missionaries and then stepping out in faith to travel full-time in an RV. They dreamed of raising a family, but after several years,  pregnancy didn’t come. But it finally did, only to end in devastating loss.

At that point, Shelley was older and realized this might be her last chance to have a child. The grief hit hard. “It was the most difficult loss I’ve ever faced,” she told me, even after walking through other painful losses in her life.

Pregnancy loss is often a lonely grief, one that others don’t always understand. Shelley described how it took her about a year to begin to truly process the pain and to take practical and spiritual steps toward healing. “I would walk remote trails and scream and cry out to God,” she said. “I had to face the pain honestly before I could move forward.”

Surrender and the Gift of Purpose

Eventually, Shelley came to a place of surrender, where she could tell God, “Not my will, but Yours be done.” It was then that new life began to grow in a different way. A few months after her pregnancy loss, God led her to start Christian Book Academy, a ministry that helps others “birth books into the world.”

“God told me,” Shelley shared, “You may not have birthed a baby, but you’ve birthed many books, and helped others do the same.” What a beautiful picture of Christian healing after pregnancy loss, when God redeems the broken pieces and brings new purpose from them.

Today, Shelley and CJ have helped thousands of authors write and publish their stories through Christian Book Academy, while continuing to see their own ministry flourish.

A Couple’s Journey Toward Healing

Healing after pregnancy loss isn’t only a mother’s journey. Shelley shared that while she began to heal after that first year, CJ hadn’t yet processed his own grief. A counselor encouraged them to hold a ceremony together. They wrote a letter, prayed, named their baby Caden James, and released a balloon in his memory.

That simple act became a sacred moment of shared healing and closure. “It helped CJ grieve,” she said. “It gave us something tangible to honor our child’s life.”

Shelley reminds us that even though closure isn’t complete, the deep wound can eventually become a healed scar. “It’s not a scab that gets easily reopened anymore,” she said. “It’s a healed scar—a reminder of love and of how God met us in the pain.”

The Grace of Acceptance

Over the years, Shelley has found peace in trusting that God’s plans, though different from her dreams, are still good. “Because we didn’t have children, we’ve had the gift of time,” she said. “God has used that time in ministry and in ways we couldn’t have imagined.”

That’s the heart of healing after pregnancy loss. It is not forgetting, but allowing God to redeem. It’s a sacred acceptance that says, This isn’t what I wanted, but I trust You anyway.

Shelley admits that some days are still tender, especially around December when she remembers the loss of her baby. But rather than spiraling in grief, she feels peace knowing her child is with the Lord. “We may not have our baby here,” she shared, “but we have spiritual children all over the world through the ministry God gave us.”

Finding Hope in the Journey

Mother’s Day, baby showers, and casual questions like “How many kids do you have?” can still sting for parents who’ve experienced pregnancy loss. Shelley gently reminds us that every story is different, and there’s no single path through grief.

“You never completely get over it,” she said. “But you do get through it.”

Her encouragement to others walking this road is simple but profound: don’t rush your grief. “God is gentle,” she said. “He leads us through it in phases. It took me a year to heal, but it may take longer for others. Just take one step at a time. Allow God to walk with you in the real and the raw.”

That’s what true healing and faith after pregnancy loss look like; being honest with God, processing your emotions, and trusting that He can bring purpose from pain.

You Are Not Forgotten

As we wrapped up our conversation, Shelley prayed a powerful prayer over parents who have lost a baby through miscarriage or stillbirth. She reminded us that God sees every tear, holds every question, and has the “box top” to see the full picture of our life, when we only see the scattered puzzle pieces.

If you’ve experienced this kind of loss, know this: your baby’s life mattered. Your grief matters. And healing after pregnancy loss is possible, even if right now all you can see is the pain.

Like Shelley, you may find one day that your tears have turned into something redemptive and that God has gently shaped your story into one of faith, hope, and healing.

So Hold On. Pain Eases. There is HOPE.

NOTE: This was partially taken from the Grieving Parents Sharing Hope podcast episode 319. Click here to listen to the full discussion, or look for the Grieving Parents Sharing Hope podcast on your favorite listening app.

Find out more about the full program of Christian Book Academy here.   

AWARD WINNING AUTHOR, LAURA DIEHL, has written several impactful books that provide comfort and guidance to those navigating the painful journey of child loss, after the death of her own daughter in 2011. Her most acclaimed work, When Tragedy Strikes: Rebuilding Your Life with Hope and Healing After the Death of Your Child, has received multiple accolades, including the 2017 Gold Medal Centauri Christian Book Award for Non-Fiction and a Silver Medal in the 2018 Illumination Awards. Several of her other books have won awards as well.

In addition to her writing, Laura is an ordained minister and has an extensive background in international children’s ministry. She is a sought-after speaker and singer at grief conferences and churches, known for her compassionate approach and deep understanding of the grieving process, especially the unique loss of a child. Through her weekly award-winning podcast, her writings, and other resources provided by GPS Hope, Laura and her husband, Dave, continue to provide hope and healing to thousands of parents worldwide, helping them find light in the midst of profound loss and darkness.

For more information about Laura’s award-winning books go to gpshope.org/books.
To find out more about Laura Diehl and the ministry of Grieving Parents Sharing Hope (GPS Hope) visit gpshope.org.

The link to Hope for the Future is an affiliate link, allowing part of the purchase price to go to GPS Hope.